I think the options for me are closing in yet again and I don’t trust myself enough to be smart or responsible enough to do the ‘right thing’. But the thought of all the disappointment that could come in the future feels overwhelming as it is right now and it hasn’t even happened. I don’t feel like doing anything at all.
when you first meet someone, cross them on the street, or encounter them in the professional setting - you see their midheaven sign
when you are no longer strangers - you see their ascendant
when you become friendly - you see their venus sign
when they let their guard down around you - you see their moon sign
but if you meet somebody who is very distressed or feeling unwell - you see their moon sign
if you meet somebody who is enraged, competing with you for the job, or in a mad rush - you see their mars signand the sun sign was there all along, shining through every planet in orbit, shining through everything
(via maddlestrom)
me @ all of u
all of u @ me probably
I AM SO STRESSED AND OVERWHELMED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT TO CRAWL INTO A HOLE FOR THE NEXT MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why did I let myself get into this position!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why do I always let people just walk all over me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Y I K E S
so i just went to chicago with my family and it was awesome. Chicago is my favorite place in the whole world and I always love spending time there doing whatever. i like my family and i thought everything was going well.
But then there were these little moments randomly throughout the trip where my sister was like mom and dad think you work to much and that you’ve gained too much weight or like my mom was talking about what I was eating at this one restaurant that we went to? it’s not like i have never expressed that i don’t like them talking about my health but it’s really starting to make me feel really sad that they never take what i say seriously
anyways i am just feeling extremely anxious about thanksgiving and i think it’s way too soon to see them again but it is THANKSGIVING and if i’m like i don’t want to come they’re going to throw a tantrum and freak out soooo guess i’m just going to have to put up with it and pretend like i’m ok with being a doormat yet again!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!
